ya know what I don't get?

LESBIANS!! (not that there's anything wrong with that) - but seriously… WHAT are they thinking??

GGGGGGGGrrrrrrrrr… I'm sorry but MEN are where it's at!!

how can you NOT want to be wrapped up in their big strong arms and just breathe them in?!!

look at them! GEEZ!! they're solid and strong and they smell so yummy!! they have big hands - perfect for gripping your throat and... *gulp*
err I mean perfect for taking out the garbage... yeah that's it!

never mind their faces for a moment... it's not important how far apart their eyes are or how straight their noses are etc.

just look...













JEEZUS!! how can anyone NOT just want to grab on and sink their teeth into this neck?!!



I've been asked MANY times if I've ever fantasized about being with a girl... all I can say is... uh WHY on earth would I want a chick when there are so many YUMMY men??!!

especially when one of them is MINE!! haaaa

this ain't survivor n' shit...

I thought I'd post something a little less serious today...

this clip of Dana White (president of the UFC) talking about how The Ultimate Fighter (a reality show where contestants fight eachother in hopes of winning a contact with the UFC) differs from "survivor n' shit" was at the end of last weeks episode and I literally just about fell out of my chair laughing when I saw it - I'm STILL laughing!!

I'm a dork like that

I doubt you'll be as amused as I was... but the look on his face when he realizes what he said is fucking PRICELESS

BWAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I ♥ Mary…

why? because when I have no inspiration and nothing to say… she posts something that makes me spew so, that it’s too much to leave as a comment on HER BLOG – so I have to post it here hehehe

today Mary posted about the government bailout plan to save America from ‘ecomomic panic’

it’s a short post… please GO READ IT and come back here =)

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ok you’re back…

ok this post isn’t so much about Mary’s opinion as my own… we just happen to agree…

she said:

“…one of two things is happening here:

1) The government is using scare tactics. (shame on them.)
OR
2) The government is telling the truth. (double shame on them because if it really is that bad, why the hell didn't anyone see it coming????)

personally I tend to believe that they are telling the truth… I saw it coming and I’ve said it for a LONG time… the way we (as a society) live is RIDICULOUS and it can NOT last!!

Mary says NO to an immediate bailout and thinks we should take a little more time to figure out what is going on…

that seems reasonable… either we’re being bullied and it won’t matter OR we’re fucking SCREWED anyway!!

In regards to waiting and trying to figure out what’s going on, Mary also said:

”If this means our economy falls apart, fine. I believe it will recover some day.

We can tighten our belts. We can share. We can conserve. We can live without. We can work hard. We can be less spoiled and more focused. We can survive a recession.

I have already thought of ways to save money:

eat less, turn the heat down really low and wear sweaters, say no landscapers, hair dressers, gym memberships, internet, and cell phone.”

for the most part I agree with this too... things have been bad before and people got through it... it can be done again... although I have mixed feelings... because on one hand...

we already turn the heat way down and wear sweaters (in fact we just rearranged our whole house just so we can hole up in ONE room all winter to minimize the heat usage)

we already say no (and always have) to landscapers, hairdressers, gym memberships and cell phones - as well as car payments and credit card usage

on the other hand... we also have no insurance (health OR life), 401k or retirement fund or investments or nest egg of any kind - in addition, the house we live in is owned outright and pretty much all we have to do is make sure the taxes are covered each year to keep a roof over our heads - so aside from Sam's job WE (personally) actually don't have much to lose

- this is not to say I'm only concerned about me and mine - but when it comes down to it, me and mine are all I can really worry about, ya know? it sucks and I feel bad but there's nothing I can do if you didn't stop to consider where all this BORROWING would get you... just like there's nothing YOU can do for me because I did nothing to ensure my own financial security -

however, these are not the reasons why I don't agree with the bailout plan... these are just the reasons I'm more comfortable disagreeing with it

the reason I don't think it's a good idea is that I think America has become like a giant spoiled brat... we (as a society) want what we want when we want it and most people obviously were offered and took a lot of crap they could not afford and had no business having!!

these companies were run into the ground by selfish, greedy people who wanted what they wanted when they wanted it and MORE was never enough!! to bail these companies out would be like buying a child a new toy after they intentionally broke the last one - this is not how you fix problems... it is how you quiet them temporarily

when do we stop indulging these people and rewarding their destructive behavior?

when do we swallow hard, take our lumps and LEARN A FUCKING LESSON!!

27 years ago today...

I’ve seen some concerts in my day – maybe not a lot by some people's standards but certainly more than anyone would expect from a hermit like me!! granted most of them were when I was a teenager (and MUCH LESS hermitty) hehehe

all in all I'd say I’ve seen ALMOST everyone I’d like to see… but there are a handful of shows that were never meant to be… for me anyway – mostly on account of I was either not born yet or just too darn young – I would have LOVED to have seen the Beatles, the Doors, of course Led Zeppelin – I’m STILL waiting to someday see Jethro Tull (one of the few bands from back in the day that I WOULD still like to see even as they are today!!)

but of all the concerts I wish I could have been at – there is one that stands out above all the rest!!

on September 19th 1981, Simon & Garfunkel reunited for a free concert in Central Park – according to wikipedia more than three quarters of a MILLION people were there!! (that seems like a lot) hehehe

I don't really know what it is about Simon & Garfunkel music that strikes me... maybe it's that fact that I think Paul Simon and Art Garfunkel are two of THE MOST talented individuals to ever walk the planet!!

I'm sure it's partly the fact that it reminds me of probably the safest and most innocent time in my life...

or maybe it's just a 'New York' thing... I know I complain about NY a lot (particularly areas south of kittyville) - but that is where I got my start on this earth... I was born in Long Island and spent the first several years of my life going back and forth between there and Queens

my first steps and first words, my first day of school, my first ride on a school bus etc. and once we moved 'upstate' a lot of week-long summer trips and holidays throughout my childhood were spent either at my grandparents house or at various extended families homes in Queens and Brooklyn - some of the best and most fun times of my childhood took place down there

I think one of the reasons I'm so attached to vintage episodes of sesame street is because it feels like home to me... those shows are filled with images that bring back memories of MY childhood and where I'm from...

there are a lot of places in this world for a person to come from... but none are like New York!! there is just SOMETHING special about it that you just have to feel to understand and unless you were born there (specifically down there) I don't think you can get it

but when you were... no matter when you leave, how far you go or how long you're gone... it is ALWAYS a part of you - I know that no matter where I wind up in this life (or how much some parts of it may stink) New York will ALWAYS be MY home!!

I really don't know how to explain it... but that is what Simon & Garfunkel's music reminds me of

and I can't even imagine the energy that must have flowed through the crowd that night!! it had to be an AMAZING experience!!

but alas I have to live vicariously through the lens of a camera...

so on the anniversary of what was probably one of the most awesome things I never saw...

21 TOTALLY AWESOME VIDEOS!!!

ok the videos don't seem to want to work on here (for me anyway) so if ya wanna seen the concert, I guess you'll have to click on the individual links...

ONE

TWO

THREE

FOUR

FIVE

SIX

SEVEN

EIGHT

NINE

TEN

ELEVEN

TWELVE

THIRTEEN

FOURTEEN

FIFTEEN

SIXTEEN

SEVENTEEN

EIGHTEEN

NINETEEN

TWENTY

TWENTY-ONE

have a GREAT weekend!! =)

WTF????

even though they usually clearly say NOT to, I'm sure people leave LOTS of odd things in those big metal clothing donation bins... some probably even dump garbage in them...

but what our local paper recently reported someone left in one of our MANY local donation bins, takes the cake

apparently some twisted fuck decided they didn't want their dog anymore... and stuck her through the slot like an old worn out pair of shoes!!

for a WEEK this poor dog was trapped inside what must have been a stifling hot metal box - in VERY HUMID, 90º+ weather, with no food or water... alone!!

she was discovered when they came to collect the donations... a man emptied the bin and found her among the bags of used clothing!! despite what she no doubt went through BEFORE she was abandoned and left for dead and the torture and deprivation she must have felt all those days in the bin... the poor emaciated puppy wagged her tail and licked the faces of her rescuers!!

what kind of SICK piece of shit would do this to their DOG??!!


according the the SPCA she should be nearly 40 pounds... but the poor thing weighed only 16!! and she was so dehydrated they couldn't even draw blood to see if she has any underlying problems that may have contributed to her condition

fortunately she was found alive, was treated by vets, and is NOW being well taken care of while people do their best to get her back in good health... they say her prognosis is good

meanwhile I hope they find the sick sonofabitch who did this... and lock his or her sorry ass in box... for A LOT longer than a week!!

update...

so I sent my pee off to the doctor this morning (my mother dropped it off on her way to work)

they test it – just to make sure I even HAVE a UTI before they send it off to the lab… and apparently… I do NOT

she said there were no nitrites and no whatever elses and just very trace amounts bacteria… which she says could be from pretty much anything ‘down there’ – in other words something may have gotten into the cup but not through my urine – although I thought I cleaned myself pretty well before I filled my little cup *shrug* what do I know… I didn’t use antibacterial soap so I guess it’s possible

apparently it’s true… even when I’m clean I’m still a dirty girl!! haaaa

all I know is I have been feeling considerably better since I woke up yesterday morning – maybe I had some kind of virus that was causing all that abdominal pain and the slightly elevated temperature I had on Monday - or maybe my temp does that from time to time but since I’m not obsessed with the prospect of my kidneys failing I don’t check so I don’t notice

anyway… she said there is a chance that I just flushed the baddies out with all my water and cranberry extract and whatnot… or perhaps it is a yeast infection

I’ll tell ya what… I’ve had my share of yeast infections… some VERY bad!! and NONE have ever felt like this!!

I mean I guess it’s possible that a series of coincidental stuff made several different ‘symptoms’ feel like one illness

maybe my urine just looked cloudy to me because it’s freakin’ PISS… NOT water!! haaaa

maybe the discomfort when I peed had something to do with something I had been eating… I ate a crap load of chocolate that day, right before the symptoms started – maybe that irritated something – although I’ve eaten crap loads of chocolate before and not had that problem – but since the ‘urethra discomfort’ has been intermittent, I guess it’s possible it is caused by something I’m eating

then maybe the pain from ovulating mixed with other premenstrual crap combined with that discomfort and drinking A LOT of water… therefore peeing all the time – made me think I had something I didn’t

or maybe I did manage to flush it out… it HAS been pretty much my only mission in life for the last several days to drink water and pee – whereas I assume most people have LIVES and can’t spend all their time obsessing over the contents of their bladder

of course then again… maybe it is actually a tumor after all

the doctor said to go about my business and if it starts to bother me again or if anything else weird crops up to give her a call - so keep your fingers crossed hehehe

anyway... thanks for all your well wishes and concern... and of course chicken soup mmmmm =)




p.s. in case anyone is interested… there is FINALLY a new post on my diet blog – WOO HOO

me sick =(

**WARNING** insanely BORING post ahead.. I mean seriously boring... WAY more boring than usual... and that's REALLY saying something hehehe

I seem to have a urinary tract infection… although I can’t be sure – doctors don’t like it when you attempt to diagnose yourself! especially if you then ask them to use their powers to write you a prescription for your diagnosis hehehe

tell me what you think…

it started out Tuesday afternoon, with discomfort in what I would assume is my urethra (the ‘tube’ that brings urine from the bladder to… the toilet) when I pee, that feels like I have to pee worse WHILE I’m actually still peeing

(I hoped it was just… I don’t know what… something that would clear up!! because I had no way of getting to the doctor)

followed by still feeling like I need to pee pretty much right away after I just went – and pretty much constantly feeling like I need to pee (this became intermittent after a couple days and doesn’t feel that bad at all anymore… maybe I’m just getting used to it)

cloudy looking urine

lower back pain – similar to menstrual back pain (for those who have experienced that) – could just be because I’m due for my period

over the weekend I was having pretty bad lower abdominal pain - similar to ovulation pain – my cycle is screwed up… I could have just been ovulating

sunday morning I took one of those home UTI tests – that came back positive for both aspects of whatever the heck it tests for (nitrites and protein I think)

monday morning I took another just for back up, because I had it – tested positive for nitrites but not protein… go figure

by yesterday afternoon my entire abdomen was hurting – I took tylenol and rested a bit and felt quite a bit better

every now and then I have a slight temperature – last night it was 99.4 – this morning it was back down to 97.4 (my normal temp)

I spoke to the doctor yesterday – figuring based on my symptoms, which are CLASSIC UTI (either that or an STD and we know it’s not THAT because Sam still has his penis) and the fact that I took two home tests which BOTH point to a UTI – that she would just call me in some bactrim or something and be done with it – but noooooo

thanks to our fucked up way of over treating things and the fact that so many bacteria are now resistant to different antibiotics… apparently they have to send my urine to a lab (CA-CHING) to test what strain it is and determine what antibiotic would be best for it

however… I could not get urine to them yesterday and they are closed today… which means I have to wait until TOMORROW morning just to get the urine to them… then they have to send it off to be tested - who knows how long THAT will take!!

meanwhile I’m just supposed to sit here and hope I don’t wind up with (if I don’t already have) a freakin’ KIDNEY infection!! WOO HOO

so I’ve been drinking water by the bucketful – and twice a day doing cranberry extract

keeping an eye on my temperature to make sure it’s not too high… and my urine to make sure it doesn’t appear to have blood in it

of course if I look online, all signs lead to a tumor or some kind of cancer – so I’m avoiding google and webMD like the plague haaa

meanwhile I’m not feeling so hot… so I probably won’t be around much... at least until I get some antibiotics into me =(


alright - let the pity party commence... good vibes and whatnot are welcome... as well as chicken soup... no wait, not chicken soup... GRILLED CHEESE ~ yeahhhh!!

FREEDOM!

well it looks like I may be a moron after all...

today mary posted this:



and I started to comment on it at her place but as often happens I got a little long winded on my soap box and decided to post my thoughts here instead

I particularly like the bit about how he likes 'all 4 candidates'

GAH!!

ya know, there are SEVERAL other choices besides Obama and McCain (and their running mates) this November… male, female, black, white – without googling can you name them? some of them? any of them? do you know anything about them? if you don’t do your best to learn all there is to know about ALL or at least SOME of them – how are you making an informed, intelligent choice??

you probably think you don’t need to waste your time because a vote for any third party candidate is basically like throwing your vote down the drain (that is what I’ve always been told anyway)

here’s what I think… as soon as we get our heads out of our asses and spend some time focusing on OTHER options besides the two main choices the brain dead media shoves down our throats - I'll consider giving a candidate my vote

until then - count me as one of the morons

as a free person I'm making a free choice to not cast my vote for either of the only two twits who have a chance of actually winning - because neither of them is worth me putting on my shoes and leaving my house for the 10 minutes it takes to go out and pull the lever

it is first and foremost my duty to ME to NOT do something as IMPORTANT as VOTING, for someone I don't believe in, 'just because' a bunch of people in other parts of the world don't have that right

as an American I have several RIGHTS - I don’t necessarily feel I have to exercise them ALL at all times – isn't that the beauty of America and having these rights and freedoms - I’m grateful to be able to if I choose but it’s not a freakin’ requirement… or is it? is it un-American of me to not exercise ALL of my right all of the time??

people waive their rights all the time... how many of you exercise your right to bear arms? sure you're grateful that others carry weapons (like the police and the military) to help protect your rights and your safety - but you don't feel it necessary to protect yourself if it's not what's right for you... in your heart

participating in something when I don't necessarily agree with the way it is run (at this time) is not right for ME - that does not make me any less American or any less intelligent or any less worthy of all of my many other rights or freedoms!! choosing to take a stand against something I don't agree with IS one of my rights and one of my freedoms!! and unlike voting... it IS one of my DUTIES as a human being and an American!!

voting is NOT you duty... finding a way to express your opinion and make your voice heard IS the duty you have... to yourself!! in the end you have to be true to yourself... follow YOUR heart and YOUR gut - and not let anyone bully you into making choices you are not comfortable with!! THAT is NOT freedom!!

as a woman and a human being I want (and am damn grateful for) the right to BE ABLE to vote if I CHOOSE - I don't want to be ridiculed, insulted, and bullied into doing it - at what point does something go from being a right to being requirement?

are we free? I sure as hell don’t feel like I have a choice in this matter… not only do I NOT feel FREE to CHOOSE I don’t feel free to discuss my choices or thoughts on the matter without fear of persecution by my fellow free speaking Americans!!

but just as I AM free to express my opinions I reckon you (I’m saying YOU in general - as everyone who isn’t me…) are free to disagree

and that is what makes this place so great

although I suppose by not voting (and by most people's opnions therefor having no right to complain) I’m essentially waiving my right to free speech as well – I sure as fuck hope I don’t ever get arrested, lest I be forced to waive my right to a speedy trial by a jury of my peers and instead be disemboweled in the village square – all because I CHOSE to exercise my RIGHT to NOT participate in the joke that is the two party system

p.s. if you don’t hear from me for a while it’s probably because the government has exercised their right to monitor transmissions, flagged this post, tracked me down and have taken me to a dark room somewhere to reprogram me

YEE HAW

R.I.P.

"And to think, there are still places in the world where man has not been, where he has left no footprints, where the mysteries stand secure, untouched by human eyes. I want to go to these places, the quiet, timeless, ageless places, and sit, letting silence and solitude be my teachers"

~Evan Tanner (fellow blogger, poet, philosopher, liver of life to it's fullest... and major kicker of ass!!)

better?

just checking to see if things are better now…

negativity...

1. I’m still having trouble sleeping in our new bed… I’m starting to lose hope – I wonder if part of the problem is maybe that we rearranged the room before we got the new bed and I’m just not used to it this way… looks wise, I like it better… but I’m learning to REALLY dislike it otherwise and that might be frustrating me – whatever it is I wish it would work itself out… I REALLY don’t want to be one of those couples that sleeps in separate rooms – certainly NOT in our 30’s!!

2. when we rearranged the room, it was so that we could squeeze our computer in here in preparation for AC to move in with us… he flaked (big surprise) but we decided to keep with the plan to move the stuff in here… I’m hoping that holing up in the bedroom for the winter will help us save on heat!!

anyway – when we moved the computer in here we didn’t really stop to consider that we get our sound through a stereo and REAL speakers (not the usual computer speakers) and we don’t really have room in here for the whole set-up at the moment so we’ve been without sound (other than headphones) for the last 2 weeks and I HATE it!! I’ve been trying to come up with a solution, but so far nothing has worked out

3. not that it matters – because this computer is a big fat steaming hunk of crap – don’t be surprised if I vanish from here for a while… I don’t know what is going on but it doesn’t look good

p.s. I type my posts in 'word' and paste them in here - does anyone know WHY this is allofasudden bringing the format from word over to here when I pasted this into blogger?? blogger doesn't seem to like it and is giving me errors left and right - and is posting my stuff in my word font rather than the default font I have set on my blog (and it's pissing me off!!) I never had this problem before - could it be yet another of my computers new little quirks?

YAY!!

so you know how we got that tempur-pedic mattress a year or so ago... and how it KILLED my back and has caused me to sleep in my recliner (away from my husband) for the last year? well we FINALLY got a new mattress - it looks like this:

(picture swiped... err borrowed from the S&F web site)

it's a stearns and foster 'plaza terrace room dreams' model - apparently it's a $1400 mattress but we got it on clearance for $500 (WOO HOO) I think it's a discontinued model or something - it has something they call a 'plush euro pillowtop' - I'm not really sure how that differs from a regular pillowtop - I think it has some latex foam inside or something

I don't know - we tested out so many mattresses before we decided on this one that by the end I was pretty much just ready to 'eeny meeny miny moe' a choice

they ALL caused me some kind of discomfort - I've never laid down on a bed that didn't... but none have ever been as back breakingly uncomfortable as the tempur-pedic we were replacing - which was still perfectly good... if you like sleeping on a slab

basically to me it seemed that as long as it wasn't a cheap piece of crap OR a tempur-pedic I would be ok with it - in the end, at the last store we went to Sam pointed out 4 mattresses and told me to pick one - I laid down on all of them like Goldilocks and this one was the hands down winner - I think because it has some kind of edge support that makes it so you can sleep right to the edge of the bed without feeling like you're sliding off - I often sleep right up on the edge or partly hanging off

we also got new sheets... I don't know what happened to the sheets we had for our last queen size bed but they seem to have vanished - it's just as well though... these new sheets are NICE!! I like them a lot...

to go with the new mattress I was also shanghaied (by Sam) into buying a new pillow... some kind of latex foam - the thing weighs a TON!! I'll kick ass if I ever find myself in a pillow fight with it!! I think one good whack upside the head would knock someone out cold haaaa

so far that is all I know it's good for... maybe someday I'll actually get to SLEEP on it!!

yeah, we got the mattress on Monday and I still haven't slept on it yet =(

apparently after sleeping in a chair for a year I'm having a hard time adjusting to a bed again... I can nod off while I'm propped up watching tv - but when I try to actually lay down and go to sleep I just can't seem to do it. sleeping in the chair, I have no pain and no discomfort

but sleeping in the bed I am reminded of why I so often would get up at 3 or 4 in the morning and go sleep in the living room - the thing about the chair is that my boobs don't get in the way at all... but laying down there is no way of keeping them from either making my back bend funny or going up into my throat, making me feel suffocated

it is the curse of big boobs I guess - I've always had them and they were always a problem when I slept, but I guess I've just gotten spoiled by it not being a problem

another problem is that we don't have the dvr in the bedroom... or digital cable for that matter - which means there is usually NOTHING on - how am I supposed to get to sleep if there is nothing on tv?

I could stay out in the living room and watch tv until I'm tired and then go into the bedroom... but if I do that I'll wake up too much before I settle into bed - I have no problem falling asleep... but I do have a problem STAYING asleep - so chances are I'd just wind up falling asleep out there and staying there

I really didn't think this would be such a struggle (yes Brian I know you thunk it)

it really kinda sucks though... we spent all this money on a new mattress, sheets and a fancy new pillow - that freakin' pillow cost $50!! which is why I basically had to be tricked into getting it - I was distracted with something else and Sam asked me which pillow I wanted 'the soft or the firm'

I chose the firm (go figure!)

anyway... I would N E V E R spend $50 on a PILLOW!! but he didn't give me a chance to think about it

and now I'm not even sleeping on it =(

we have close to $600 worth of new stuff to sleep on in there and I'm not sleeping on any of it!!

he says I will... he keeps saying that

I told him last night - just because he keeps saying it doesn't make it so!!

apparently trying to trick me into sleeping in a bed isn't as easy as tricking me into buying a new pillow...

I was thinking from the get go (though I didn't tell him) that we need to 'christen' the new mattress... if he wears me out well enough I might just zonk out and actually sleep (for a while at least) in the bed

perhaps tonight all the stars and planets will align...

p.s. HERE is a picture of our actual bed... our stuff is nowhere near as fancy as the display model above haaaa ~

east bound and down...

R.I.P. Jerry Reed

funny...

I saw this awesome bumper sticker yesterday that I just HAD to share - I kinda want a car just so I can put this sticker on it!! haaaa