WTF??!!
I WAS going to post something else here today but this story is eating my brain so I just had to vent about it
I had heard a very brief bit about this on the news yesterday morning – but missed the actual report – those of you who pay more attention to the news may have heard more about it - although it hasn’t exactly gotten as much attention as I would think something like this would get... if this took place in America it would probably be all we would hear about (like the polygamists out in Texas… which is a whole other piece of insanity for a different day)
imagine being sexually abused by your father from the age of 11 – then when you’re 18, being drugged and locked in the basement and forced to write a letter telling your mother you ran away from home – then being repeatedly raped by your father as he holds you captive under ground for TWENTY FOUR YEARS!!!
imagine bearing 7 of his children!! (one of which, the sick son of a bitch threw in an incinerator when it died a few a days after birth)
imagine BEING one of those children
imagine being one of those children and living down in that dark basement your ENTIRE life never experiencing any of the every day sights, sounds and smells that we all take for granted
never once EVER setting foot on grass, breathing fresh air, seeing the sky, feeling the warmth of the sun or the coolness of raindrops - never once smelling a flower… never running or jumping or playing
never going to the park… or school for that matter
never running through a sprinkler on a hot summer day… never seeing a rainbow… probably never even hearing of a rainbow
never kicking a ball or playing tag… never seeing a movie… never sitting on the curb and trying to lick up your ice cream cone before it melts all over your hand
never reading a book… feeling the breeze on your face… or hearing the birds sing
imagine in the year 2008 never having been outside of a windowless basement, never having seen let alone ridden in a car or experienced ANYTHING other than (what I can only guess were unimaginable horrors) in a basement prison held captive by a deranged old man
imagine being the mother of those children – and knowing that THEIR father is YOUR father… imagine never getting to watch your babies grow and play and laugh like normal children… never getting to teach them to ride a bike or watch them get on the school bus for the first time or push them on the swings… or help them build a sand castle or see them squeal with delight as they jump into a pile of leaves
imagine being one of those children and living up in the real world being raised by this twisted piece of shit and not even knowing that your mother is locked in the basement or that you have siblings down there as well
can you imagine it? cause I can’t!! I can’t wrap my mind around how any of this is possible… how a person could be so sick and twisted as to even think of this, let alone pull it off… for more than TWO DECADES!!
what has to happen to a person’s brain to make them into the kind of monster that could do something like this?
how are those people ever supposed to live anything even close to a normal life?
I have heard some truly disturbing, nauseating, heart breaking stories of horrific things that some people have had to suffer at the hands of other ‘alleged’ human beings… and after all that I've read and seen I actually didn’t think anything could shock me anymore!!
but I guess I was wrong - I am so angry and sad for these people there aren’t even words to describe it...
I am ashamed of belonging to the same species as the monsters that do these things…
I am ashamed of myself for letting the (extremely small in comparison) trauma and crap that I have dealt with in my life make me a victim…
and I am ashamed of myself for taking even one moment of my amazing and beautiful life for granted - I don’t intend to let it happen again…








