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Monday, October 31, 2005

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!

well I planned on a really cool HALLOWEEN post for today but somehow time got away from me.... stupid cold!!!

I have a busy busy day ahead of me so I thought I'd at least leave you with one of my very favoritest creepy horror movie images!!


first person who can tell me who they are wins a prize.... but it's pretty easy so the prize will be small and cheap hehehe

anyway I hope you all have a REALLY GREAT HALLOWEEN with LOTS of yummy candy and plenty of ghosts and goblins and all that fun stuff....

YAY!!!

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Saturday, October 29, 2005

who needs energy anyway?

Once again I wasn’t planning on posting today…. I think I may have a problem! Is it REALLY possible to be addicted to blogging?

I’ve been sick since Monday but I’m finally on the mend!! (I think) I’m still partially deaf in my left ear but I can smell and taste things again! YAY!! I’m still not GREAT but since I don’t remember a time when I was – I’m happy for the moment to settle for functional!

Anyway have you ever seen the movie The Road To Wellville? If not I highly recommend it for anyone who is weird (like me) anyway there’s a quote from the movie that says something like:

Sex is the sewer drain of a healthy body…. Any use of the sexual act other than procreation is a waste of vital energy! Wasted seeds are wasted lives!”

I obviously don’t subscribe to that philosophy 99% of the time but when I’m sick I’m a firm believer in conserving my vital energy!! I’m convinced that orgasms drain me of my ability to get well quickly! And well not for nothin’ but especially if I’m sick I don’t really feel like sniffling and coughing through the motions and NOT getting my cookie, ya know?

of course NOTHING makes me want something more than knowing I CAN’T have it!! sooooo usually a couple days into an illness I start getting all swoony! I start noticing all sorts of things I never saw before, suddenly everything looks like a penis and everything sounds like sex! some of the craziest things that I normally look right past suddenly make me drool!

maaan I like the way that shirt fits that dorky weather man!

*flip flip*

ooh go back! lookit the hands on HIM!

*flip flip flip flip*

*cold sweats*

good lord I could listen to this guys voice all day!! – YES I know it’s the bible channel.... does that mean I’m going to hell?!?!?

*flip flip*

*biting my lip*

that’s right!! NOBODY puts Baby in a corner!! YOU tell him!!

I know I’ve mentioned before how much I LOVE men so I won’t get into it again but you know I’m starting to go a little buggy if I flip through the channels and come across Dirty Dancing and start looking all moony at Patrick Swayze!! He’s sooooo NOT my type AT ALL but when I saw him there with his shirt open and his chest all glisteny, rising and falling as he tried to catch his breath I found myself licking my lips wishing I could just jump through the screen and bite him!!

So now it’s been 5 days… count ‘em FIVE long days…. I know it’s getting to Sam too but I’m not sharing his weird nocturnal secrets!

He keeps pawing at me before he leaves for work. If he catches me leaning against the kitchen counter watching the little birdies flinging seed at eachother he comes up behind me groping my ass. When he walks past me all snuggled up in my big comfy chair he comes over and tweaks my nipples.

I don’t know if he’s trying to drive me crazy or what, but if so it’s working!

Anyway…. like I said I can kind of smell and taste things now, I’m not coughing ALL the time, I’m getting my appetite back.

That’s good enough right? so what if I can’t hear anything to my left and I’m surrounded by snot rags!!

I’m getting in the shower and pouncing on my poor neglected husband tonight if it kills me!!

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Friday, October 28, 2005

is there something wrong with me?

I’ve actually been meaning to bring this up for a while but I just never got around to it until now. It’s not something I ever really paid that much attention to until I had spent quite a bit of time online. Everyone wants to be your FRIEND. ‘Ooh lets be friends’ ‘howdy friend!’ friend friend friend friend friend friend friend…. It’s enough to make me pull my hair out!! I’ve been here a good long time and have chatted with countless people all over the world and I think in ALL that time – through ALL those people I’ve come across less than a handful that I would actually call 'friend' (as much as you can be friends with someone you’ve never actually met)

Maybe I’m wrong but personally I define a friend as someone you know and trust, who you can count on, and who loves you even when you’re at your least lovable! Kinda like I’ve been lately….

I have 3 close friends and one of them is Sam…. The other two are Natalie and Mike. I’ve been hanging with Natalie more on than off since we were in kindergarten! I started hanging with Mike in high school. They were both in our wedding – Natalie my maid of honor and Mike the best man (conveniently he’s also Sam’s best friend)

A shrink one time asked me why I’m not interested in having MORE friends. I thought this was a kind of odd question, So I thought of Natalie….

Natalie is one of these people who has a couple dozen ‘friends’ with varying degrees of closeness. and for the most part I agree they are true friends, some are more what I consider ‘friendly acquaintances’ or people you maybe talk to a few times a year, who you send a Christmas card to – you know the type.

I have several of them myself…. My Christmas card list is considerably longer than the list of people I think of as FRIENDS.

I told the shrink after not much thought, that I just don’t have the patience or energy to properly maintain multiple close relationships, to give them the attention they deserve and need to flourish.

She wasn’t satisfied with that answer…. I then told her that my time is precious to me and every extra person you let into your life takes up time I’m not willing to give up for just anyone.

She wasn’t buying this either. We never did come to a satisfying conclusion but I’ve thought about it many times in the years since.... is there something WRONG with me?

When I meet new people, the thought of them being a potential friend never enters my mind…. I just assume they’re yet another acquaintance I may or may not see again (usually depending on how friendly they are with either Natalie, Mike or Sam) and Sam makes new ‘friends’ about as often as I do.

I can’t stand small talk!! I have a hard enough time getting up the energy to spend time with each of the people I spend my time with now AND still get all my other stuff done.

But most of all I think the REAL reason I don’t have interest in making MORE ‘friends’ is that I’m completely fulfilled by the few true friends I actually have!!

Sam and I are extremely fortunate…. Not only do our friends put up with me chewing their ears off with our latest sob story (not that we often have a sob story to spew) but when we do boy do I spew!!

But they actually listen…. and care!! they offer all that they have to make things better for us and they think nothing of it. I know that they would give us the clothes off their backs if we seemed colder than them, and we would do the same.

They just seem to know when to back off and when to come nearer….
I’ve been sick all week with this stupid cold and my own sister didn’t have the courtesy to cut me a break. She called me up asking me for answers about something that could clearly wait a few days and got pissy with me when I told her I couldn’t answer her now for this, this and that reason. Which only served to make me feel worse!!

Yet there’s Natalie, who I talk to for hours a day (even though she lives right around the corner) and who’s life is disturbingly hectic. She had the good sense (or is it consideration?) to let me rest once she heard I wasn’t feeling well. When she had a question for me she left a message and said ‘I just wanted to see how you’re feeling – I have this question, when you’re feeling better get back to me’ - I was grateful for the thought AND consideration!

and yesterday, even though I still wasn’t feeling well, life outside of your own little world doesn’t stop and little annoyances creep in causing more damn work! we had a little financial screw up involving that doctor bill I mentioned the other day. Sam accidentally used the DEBIT card instead of the credit card, which meant we were immediately out that $144 instead of owing it next month. Which even though THAT sucked THIS sucked worse!! It meant that certain other 'auto debits' I had no control over wouldn’t be covered and we would most likely be overdrawn which will cost us even more money that we don’t have - etc. (with Sam missing about a weeks pay between the old job and this new one it could easily take us a few months to catch up)

I spent at least 45 minutes on the phone venting to Natalie about this. She did her best to listen through her psycho kids screaming and climbing all over her, which made me laugh…. She offered to give me the few bucks I needed to cover the mix-up if I could get a ride to the bank, but I know she’s just as broke as us…. all I really needed was an ear and there it was! and I was grateful for it… I hung up feeling a bit better.

Then there’s Mike who we sometimes may not hear from for months at a time and then out of the blue he reappears just when you need him most. Wednesday he emailed and called me trying to get together for lunch because he FINALLY had a day off but I was feeling like such total crap. I mean watery eyes, sneezing, and when I leaned over the least bit, liquefied snot would just drip from my nose like a leaky faucet!! The last thing I wanted to do was socialize, especially in PUBLIC!

I felt bad but I totally blew him off…. yesterday morning I emailed him to explain but before he got the message he called me. We BS’d a bit and caught up since it had been a couple months. He told me the latest on a bit of a family drama that’s been going on with him, and about how his boss just gave him a raise – “YAY!! It’s about time they start paying you what you’re worth!!” I said…. then he was telling me about the work he’s been getting done on his car and gave me a line on some good inexpensive snow tires – etc etc.

I started telling him our little sob story…. and about the Halloween party and assorted other little not so interesting things that have happened in kittyville over the last couple months. We made plans to get together next Wednesday and hang out and then he was home, so we hung up.

I smiled…. looking forward to Sam getting home so I could tell him I heard from Mike and what all was going on with him (he often misses his calls because they work kind of opposite hours)

a couple hours later there’s a truck in my driveway…. I open the door, surprised to see Mike standing there! I let him in and we talked a while, next thing I know he reached into his pocket and pulled out 3 crisp $100 bills and thrust them toward me.

I just shook my head and said NO! but he wouldn’t take no for an answer, saying we helped him when he was in trouble (a few years ago he kinda found himself with nowhere to stay and we let him crash at our apartment)

It’s hardly the same thing! I said, but he stuck the money in my hand and wouldn’t take it back!

I said – ‘you have NO idea what a fucking HUGE help this is!!’ (I say the F word a lot when I’m with him) and I thanked him repeatedly while shaking my head and rolling my eyes, thinking WHAT am I gonna do with him?!?!

He wasn’t just in the neighborhood! He drove nearly an hour completely out of his way just to help us out!!

Then he said…. ‘and I DON’T want it back!!’

Now I ask you…. with FRIENDS like these who could possibly need anything MORE?!

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

*cough cough*

I hate having a cold!! I know, who doesn’t, right? the last two nights I’ve slept in my big comfy chair in the living room because I just didn’t want to get horizontal for fear I’d suffocate on my own phlegm!!

I’ve been keeping myself pretty heavily medicated, now I have a nyquil hangover…. But that’s ok with me! as far as I’m concerned the ONLY up side to having a cold is the NYQUIL hehehe

I’m more fortunate than most in that when I get sick I don’t HAVE to do much of anything. My job is to just get well!! and that’s nice…. I don’t have to get dressed and go out into the cold cruel world. I can just lounge out in my pj’s and steam my sinuses and take hot baths and get lots of rest.

Believe me I’m VERY grateful for that!!

So anyway one of the things I hate the most about having a cold is that you can’t smell or taste anything. Yesterday, in anticipation of not wanting to cook much for the rest of the week, and knowing I have the most energy in the morning, I made a huge pot of sauce with meatballs and hot sausage and chicken. It LOOKED really yummy but I couldn’t smell it at all!!

I wasn’t dipping into it half the day like I normally do because I didn’t want to spread my sickie germs!! I couldn’t have tasted it anyway :(

When Sam got home he said it smelled awesome… and he kept going back for more because he said it was just too good!! hey great – I appreciate that but I sure do wish I could taste it!! hehehe

Once I’m feeling better I plan to use the sauce to make a big pan of eggplant parm. But I’m sure as hell not going through the trouble of THAT until I can fully taste again!!

I’m rambling – my head is all foggy….

So here I sit, sipping on my hot water with lemon & honey. This honey is AWESOME!! Sam got it from his old job before he left…. I kinda wish he didn’t because now I’m hooked on the stuff and it costs like $8 a jar!! Which we obviously can’t afford now :(

But I’m glad to have it now…. I’m convinced it makes a difference in the way I feel hehehe

Anyway I clearly don’t have anything interesting to say…. and I can just babble on and on so I better shut myself up now. besides Hush Hush Sweet Charlotte is about to come on…. followed by Psycho III and Graveyard Shift - and that’s just on AMC… I wonder what I’ll find if I flip around!! hehehe I may not get out of my big comfy chair all day!! it’s bad enough I already missed Strait Jacket :(

ok off I go to snuggly land with my hot honey lemon water and my tissues and my blanky - have a nice day!!

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

don't drop the.... stethoscope

You may remember a few months back I had a bladder infection and ended up having to go to the doctor. First thing I did when I got home was come here to complain about what a rip off I thought it all was…. $60!! To find out what I already knew… just so that someone with a couple initials after his name can scribble my cure onto a pad. I wasn’t thrilled to say the least! Welllll get a load of this one!!

as I mentioned yesterday, Sam has been a bit unwell lately and I was starting to worry so I made him go to the doctor. Even though we’re a bit behind due to his recent employment situation. I thought he’s wheezing and coughing and I don’t want him to end up seriously sick just as he’s starting a brand new job. Soooo off he went, against his better judgment. I figured by this time next month we could afford $60 more so I told him to just put it on the credit card. No problem, right?

WRONG!

First of all he was made to wait more than an hour past his appointment time, which I think it just ridiculous!! I mean what the hell are they doing?? I know I’ve never gotten more than 10 minutes alone with an actual doctor at that place so what is the hold up?

Once he actually saw the doctor he got nothing more than the usual stethoscope treatment, light in your ears etc.

The doctor then told him he thinks he might have the start of asthma and gave him Advair (not sure he can even take that with his heart) then he gave him samples of some antibiotic (for some funny colored stuff he coughed up like 3 days ago) but didn’t give him a diagnosis of anything that actually warrants taking antibiotics and gave him a prescription for MORE incase the samples don’t cut it.

Cut it for WHAT? How ill we know if it worked if we don’t even know what the hell is wrong with him!! I mean if the wheezing and coughing and stuff is the starts of asthma then what is this antibiotic for?

Anyway the antibiotic is of course one of those fancy new kinds that cost like $80 so there’s no way that’s getting filled!! Not that he’s gonna take antibiotics for no apparent reason anyway!

So this whole visit which didn’t really answer anything other than to tell us we’re pretty sure he’s not deathly ill at the moment (which believe me I’m grateful for!) took all of 10 minutes. There were NO tests or anything done and the cost?

Well you’d think it would be similar to the cost of my recent visit wouldn’t you?
I mean not much was different about it – other than the fact that MY visit was on a Saturday (when they do emergency appointments) and I had a urine test done. So maybe my visit should have cost slightly more even, right?

Noooooooooooo the price for this mind-boggling experience: $144!!!!!!!!!! incase you're as mathematically challenged as I am, that equals over $860 and hour!!


I'm sorry doc, I'm sure you're a super nice guy and a wonderful physician, but in order for your services to be worth THAT much I think you should be curing cancer or AIDS or something - ya know?

So I called, posing as a potential patient and asked what they charge for an office visit… the lady said that it depends on what takes place (apparently they charge extra to not really tell you much)

She said that it can range from $90-$150 depending on if there are any tests done and if so what types.

Best case scenario already that’s $30 more than it was just a couple months ago! a significant enough price increase that I think you should be made aware of it when you make the appointment – or at the very least there should be a sign hanging up in the waiting room to inform you of this somewhat MAJOR change!

His reaction when they told him the price? ‘HOLY SHIT!’ but then he proceeded to PAY IT ANYWAY!! It’s things like this that make me want to go with him on these trips… because there’s NO WAY IN HELL I would have paid that on the spot!! He just gets so irritated that he just says fuck it and bends over for the inevitable ass reaming.

I just CAN’T put up with that shit!! They get away with these things because nobody ever questions them. The receptionist had the balls to say ‘guess it pays to have insurance’ as if we wouldn’t if we could afford it!!

Gee sweetheart we hadn’t thought of medical insurance before, thanks for the idea!!!

Anyway I’m fighting this…. I’m very curious since they claim their prices range from $90-$150 I assume a bare bones appointment (such as his) shouldn’t be more than $90 (even though I think that’s a bit of a drastic increase from the $60 I paid a few months ago at least it feels a bit more like they at least lubed up before driving it home ya know?)

So I’m curious as to exactly WHAT took place during his visit that brings the price up to just $6 less than the MAX price on their pay scale.

and I won’t rest until this is settled!!

ACHOOOOOOOOOOOooooooo *snif*

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Monday, October 24, 2005

another weekend update & stuff....

Well I FINALLY got my apron done! and I have to say I’m pretty impressed with myself hehehe I spent most of the day Saturday at Natalie’s helping her set up for her party. Actually I spent most of the day in her kitchen preparing all the food she probably could have gotten together in advance, but it was fun! Of course by the time people started showing up I was kinda tired. But that’s ok because I usually just sit somewhere chiming in on other people’s conversations anyway hehehe

Fortunately I had to call Sam to remind him to bring something with him because he had fallen asleep!! Guess his day at home all by himself was too much for him to handle hehehe he hardly ever gets time to himself so who knows what the heck he was doing!!

I had spent quite a bit of time manufacturing this whole persona for him to go along with his costume. I even made him business cards and stuff, but at the last minute he changed his mind. He dug out his old jean jacket with the iron maiden back patch and all this other goofy writing and stuff on it from when we were teenagers, he also wore one of our old megadeth shirts, one of those silly terrycloth looking wrist bands that were so popular once upon a time.

He claimed to be ‘a 15 year glitch in the space-time continuum’ or some such philosophical or scientific thing which is way over my head hehehe and here I thought he was just supposed to look like a regular old dirt bag! haaaa silly me!!

He was VERY cute!! Much more nice to look at than the dorky door-to-door pickle salesman he was supposed to be!!

If anyone got any half way decent pictures I’ll think about posting them.

In other news: some germy bastard at the party seems to have been kind enough to share their disease with me…. I seem to be coming down with a cold or something. I have a sore throat that’s been getting worse all day. as far as sicknesses go I think I HATE sore throats even more than the throw up sickies!!

Hopefully if I’m getting a cold, the sore throat will pass quickly as it moves on to something more cold-like because I just really can’t stand sore throats!!

Sam is sick with something too – I hope it’s just allergies or something…. it’s been coming and going for weeks now, coughing and wheezing and trouble breathing, headaches etc. I’m starting to worry so I made him go to the doctor even though we CAN’T afford it right now. It’ll just have to go on the credit card and we’ll hope for the best!!

GOOD NEWS though… he starts his new job tomorrow!! YAY!! I’ll feel better once he’s settled in there and we know how things will be pay wise, time wise etc.

I’m just so thankful that he got a new job so quickly!!!!! As long as our bills are covered I’m happy, we’ll just have to keep our fingers crossed while we play catch up a little bit.

I’m not gonna worry about it because we always come out ok :) that’s just how we are!!

Anyway I’m gonna split…. I’m not feeling very well so I’m rambling on & on and I just wanna get some rest! I’m gonna go get dinner made so when Sam gets home we can relax and watch a movie and enjoy what’s left of his last day off before he starts back to work – YAY!!!!

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Friday, October 21, 2005

wasting time....

alright I REALLY wasn’t planning on posting today because I REALLY need to get to work on this apron for my Halloween costume – BUT I REALLY wanted to bump those creepy dolls down another post hehehe

soooooooooo speaking of Halloween costumes…. I was rummaging through some old photo albums and came across a couple pictures of halloween costumes from years past. So I thought I’d break my general rule of virtual anonymity and share them with you.

Time has passed – things have changed and what was once utterly adorable is now a frightening mess – but you can at least get an idea of how cute I once was….

here I am dressed up for a halloween party my kindergarten class was having. I was supposed to be a gypsy….



I don’t know if I really look like a gypsy as I’ve never actually seen any REAL gypsies BUT I got to wear big hoop earrings and make-up!!

Don’t you just LOVE the wonderful job my mother did cutting my bangs!! You can’t tell but I probably had blood dripping down my forehead from the scissors jabbing at me!!

Here’s a tip for you parents out there – NEVER try to cut your kids bangs after sucking down a 6 pack of beer – which in my mother’s case would mean NEVER TRY TO CUT YOUR KIDS BANGS!!

She did the same thing with our finger and toenails too!! and when I asked her about WHY she felt it necessary to make us BLEED every time she trimmed something on us she said ‘I wanted to get everything as SHORT as possible so I wouldn’t have to do it again any time soon’ HAA!! Can you believe that?!?!

My mother has the parenting skills of well…. something with very poor parenting skills!! hehehe

She did however make that adorable little gypsy hooker costume so I guess she wasn’t all bad!!

Here I am a year later in the first of what I’m sure were MANY matching costumes my sister and I had – I’m SURE Batman was MY idea because I was and still am a bit of a BatFan BUT shouldn’t my pygmy sidekick…. err I mean little sister have been Robin or something?!



obviously I had CANDY on the brain... it looks like I was licking my chops or something with that goofy ass look on my face!! Anyway for some reason my mother (I think my whole family was in on it actually) had this idea that me and my sister (who was a year and a half younger than me!) made cute twins!

Even though she was blonde and I was a brunette – I was tall and she was short etc. etc.

I have TONS of pictures of us dressed EXACTLY the same – usually in something unisex and navy blue so it could be used to torture our male cousins who were similarly spread apart age wise but a couple years younger than us. you can see I'm wearing a navy blue shirt under my k-mart bat suit! that is NOT because it went with the costume!! ALL my life EVERY coat, snowsuit, windbreaker, and ANYTHING else that could be passed down was NAVY FUCKING BLUE!! I HATE NAVY BLUE and to this day REFUSE to wear anything that even resembles navy blue!! Of course my cousins getting our hand-me-downs DOESN’T explain why ALL my shoes and boots were also navy blue!!

I think my mother just liked to torture me!!

I know I shouldn’t complain because there were plenty of kids who didn’t/don’t have any coats or shoes at all. but I didn’t know that then so I’m complaining for 6 year old me!! hehehe

I do my best to donate to coat drives and such and if I do you can bet that NOTHING I put in those boxes is NAVY BLUE!!

Anyway that’s it for now…. if I don’t get back over the weekend I hope you all have a really GREAT couple of days!!!

especially Sarah – who’s getting MARRIED tomorrow!! WOO HOO!!

CONGRATULATIONS MAC & SARAH!!

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Thursday, October 20, 2005

the power of positive energy....

Well…. you guys KICK ASS!!! you have the most powerful positive vibes EVER!! When Sam came home yesterday morning he immediately started looking for a new job. He had an interview an hour later (that’s where he was when I was posting our little sob story) and this morning he got a call saying that he got the job!!

The starting pay isn’t great but it beats the crap out of no pay at all!! It’ll cover us and will possibly increase after the first month. So that’s where we are now… he starts this new job on Tuesday so we have a few days to kick back and veg.... so that’s what we’re gonna do!! ya know… when he’s not out hunting and I’m not helping Natalie with her halloween party hehehe

anyway I just wanted to thank you guys for the positive thoughts and stuff - you ROCK!!!


and I'm a dork!! hehehe

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

aah I was getting tired of that label anyway….

Well that’s it…. we’re no longer ‘WORKING POOR’

That’s right, now we’re just plain old POOR!

Apparently the people at Sam’s ‘new’ job didn’t feel like waiting any longer for the doctor to ok him to take on his full duties so they canned his ass - err… I mean his job was terminated (I wonder if they sent in Arnold Schwarzenegger to give him the news)

Rather than tell him this after work yesterday they were kind enough to wait until this morning so that he could get up at 5am and get an hour of work in before they gave him the boot…. YAY!!
I suppose it would have been too much to wait till the end of the day today since he was ALREADY THERE – gas ain’t exactly cheap ya know?

Here’s a little tip for anyone who is in charge of hiring and firing…. If you MUST let someone go, be kind enough to NOT make them waste an hours worth of gas just to get this news!!!

So anyway that’s what's going on here in kittyville today…. Keep your fingers crossed that he finds a decent job soon or it’s bye bye kitty because there’s no way we can justify this lightening fast connection if we’re unemployed!! hehehe

On the bright side – what I thought for the last 3 or 4 days might be pink eye turned out to be just a wild eyelash growing in a weird direction and spearing my cornea!!

Woo Hoo!! I knew if I kept looking I’d find SOMETHING poking my eyeball eventually!! ahh once again perseverance saves us $100 on a trip to the doctor and medicine!! YAY!!!!

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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

move over chucky!!

Once upon a time, way back when sea monkeys ruled the earth there was a bored little girl who spent WAY too much time exploring this vast wasteland called the internet. one of her favorite places was a ‘greeting card’ site called the DUMPSTER DIVER – she could spend hours diving into that dumpster to see what she could find. But BY FAR her very favorite dumpster find was this cute little dolly that looked like it was in a coffin!!

Isn’t she adorable?!

anyway she’s always loved creepy old dolls! One of the first horror books she ever read (when she was about 10) was about a girl who did terrible things because her evil doll made her!

whenever she goes to thrift stores or antique shops she always keeps her eyes peeled for creepy dollies!!

however she really doesn't have many dolls herself.... She does have a puppet, named Mr. Tillard – he looks pretty much like this:



only Mr. Tillard has bloodshot eyes and his fingers aren’t bent like that. Her and Mr. Tillard became great friends!! He’s good for scaring all the little kiddies away!! hehehe

but now she has a new obsession!! Surely you’ve seen regular
Krypt Kiddies before

as if they weren’t enough… now she’s discovered these adorable Krypt Kuddles - aren’t they just about the cutest things ever??!!

Just look how sweet they are!!

now she must have them!! every last one!! and she won’t rest until they're hers!!

Then I…. errr... I mean she and precious and their army of evil babies will RULE THE WORLD!!
mwaa haahaahaaaa

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Monday, October 17, 2005

october torrential rains bring weird spring flowers….

I DID end up going out with Natalie the other day and what did I see when we were stuck at a red light? DAFFODILS!!! In one of those lovely little urban, paid for by the Kiwanis club, beatify our city, gardens stuffed somehow into the center of a curb or sidewalk, which really just look out of place. you know the ones.

Also our pepper plants are covered in flowers and the sunflower seeds that I put out for the birds are starting to sprout up from the ground underneath the feeders.

HOORAY for government weather!! If this keeps up maybe I can put up a GIANT sunflower instead of a christmas tree this year…. Although decorating that might be a bit difficult. Getting all my grandma’s old ornaments to dangle properly from the petals, and where would you put the lights? and the tinsel?

Hmmm well I know the stores want me to believe it’s time to start worrying about such things but I’m just not ready yet…. Maybe after Halloween I’ll start thinking about Christmas…. Yeah maybe I’ll just skip Thanksgiving altogether!!!

Wait… that would mean no crispy turkey skin or moist yummy stuffing or flaky pecan pie or sweet potatoes or candied nuts or cheese & crackers or stuffed mushrooms or green bean casserole or shrimp cocktail or turtle cookies or buttered rolls....

screw that!!

wait.... what was I talking about?

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

hey this government rain is making my head ache.... or maybe it's this tin foil hat!!

Well I wasn’t planning on posting today…. but I’ve been up for hours trying to keep quiet so Sam can get some sleep, and I’m BORED!!

That will show through I’m sure!! hehehe

So I guess I’ll just ‘let it flow’ as they say (whoever ‘they’ are)

I’ll start with the chinese water torture…. Incase you weren’t aware it’s been raining in kittyville for over a week now! and when I say rain I don’t mean normal rain, I'm talking about TORRENTIAL RAIN! sometimes over an inch an hour ‘they’ say!

It’s not JUST kittyville though, it’s pretty much the whole northeast…. there’s been some kind of very strange weather pattern that’s been causing a big band of heavy rain to swirl around the atlantic where it keeps getting wetter and spitting back at us I guess. That was a very technical explanation wasn’t it?

Hey I never claimed to be a meteorologist!!

I know I mentioned before that
our stream was dangerously low and pretty much everyone has been concerned about the water situation this winter. well NO MORE…. most of the streams and river-like things around here are flooding along with the roads and most people’s basements!!

Anyway back to the water torture…. My house (such as it is) used to be a bakery, and a huge triple deck pizza oven used to sit exactly where my bed is. Due to other little irritating quirks that come with living in a converted store where your now bedroom was once a kitchen, we really can’t put the bed anyplace else. Sooooo right above our heads way up in the 15 foot ceiling is a large section of metal pipe/chimney that couldn’t really be removed when the ovens were taken out. I assume in a normal world such a thing is designed to NOT take in water, yet somehow when we get very heavy rain this thing drips.

and drips…

and drips….

right onto my head when I’m sleeping!!

drip

drop

drip

drop

drip drip

drop

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

and there’s pretty much nothing I can do about it – we moved the bed away from the wall so that it will at least not drip onto the bed but I CAN’T sleep unless my pillows have something to push up against (the wall) otherwise they just keep falling off the bed for some reason, so last night I just went out and slept in my big comfy chair.

I couldn’t be more grateful for that big comfy chair!! I don’t know how many nights it’s saved me!!

It looks like the rain MIGHT be letting up so we’ll see how I sleep tonight hehehe

hmmm what else has been going on….

well I have a WEEK until this halloween party and I’m nowhere near ready!! I’ve been spending more time on Sam’s persona than my costume. Really all I need to do is figure out how to make the kind of apron I want, which looks something like
this so we'll see how that goes, without a pattern I'm pretty much hopeless!! hehehe

oh and I have to find some fabric to make it out of haaaa – nothing like waiting till the last minute huh?

I’m supposed to go out shopping with Natalie again today, if her sick husband feels well enough to be left alone with the monsters err kids. I can hardly wait to see what kind of weird, kinky stuff I find at the dollar store this time!! hehehe

I'm really looking for a sale on these fake crows that are used for decorations. I'd like to put one on my fence out front, I think it's the one perfect little thing that my cute little haunted scene is missing!! but those things cost at least $10 normally and I just can't see spending $10 on a stupid fake bird!! even if it DOES have real feathers hehehe

but if she doesn't call me soon I'm gonna snuggle back up in my chair and put on a movie. I could really go for a Friday the 13th marathon!!

ok looks like the day is starting to come awake here so I'm gonna split.... I hope you all have a really GREAT weekend!!!

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Friday, October 14, 2005

somehow disconcerting….

I’m sure you’ve all seen those cute little witches that are attached to trees and people’s front doors that are made to look as if the poor witch crashed and went splat, right?

While I was out shopping at one of those ‘everything’s a dollar’ stores with my friend Natalie recently I came across something kind of similar. Of course I got a huge kick out of it, so I just had to buy it… after all it WAS just a buck!! hehehe

I showed it to her to see what she thought but she didn’t seem to think much (typical) I’m always reading something into nothing. Or am I?

You be the judge….

It’s similar to the witch crashing thing in that it’s a ‘witch’ that you attach to a tree – anyway, this is the picture from the front of the package:



now I’m confused…. is this what I initially thought of when I picked up the package? Is this a kinky little witch? Look at the dazed (I’ve just been fucked witless) look on her face!! and the mysterious white ‘drops’ moles? never seen a white mole…. sweat? ….semen?!

I suppose it’s possible that this is NOT supposed to be some kind of image of a kinky, bondage, tied to a tree and fucked until your back bleeds, fantasy.

It’s possible that it’s some sort of cutesified anti pagan interrogation image depicting a scene where the accused ‘witch’ is tied to a tree and tortured.

either way I’m not sure it’s suitable for display with the rest of the children’s halloween party decorations hehehe

I wonder if anybody else has any other ideas as to what this image is supposed to represent? Something that would explain what it was doing hanging on a pegboard between the wax fangs and the mini glow-stick necklaces perhaps?

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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

HEY! it’s precious dammit!! ….and you better not let it hear you say otherwise!!

I found this picture about a week ago – I believe it was here ….but who knows where they found it. I just thought it was the funniest thing ever and since I’m always looking for something cute to adorn my desktop, there he… she? IT went!!

It’s become quite a little conversation piece…. Sam HATES it and wanted it gone the minute he saw it. Every day when he gets home and sees it there he winces! He’s even threatened to remove it for me!

Last week my sister and her daughter were here, of course the kid ran right over to me because I’m the most super wonderful aunt ever or maybe it’s because I have a phone next to the desk that she likes to play with (she’s 20 months old) my sister looks over at the screen and says ‘WHAT the hell is THAT?!?!?’ I just shrugged ‘that's my new best friend.... I call it Precious!’ hehehe

I think she thought it would scare her kid but the kid stood at my side staring and pointing up at the screen giggling and babbling. I can never understand a word she says but I know they were babbles of approval!! She thinks it’s cute too!! YAY!!

A couple days later Sam’s brother (21?) was over…. When he saw it his eyes widened and he kinda gasped ‘what IS that?!?!’ and then buried his face in his arm ‘I can’t even look at it’ he said!! haaaa

I don’t get it… I think it’s just the sweetest thing I ever did see!!

Last night when Sam got home, he sat down at the desk as he usually does, while I put the finishing touches on dinner.

it’s getting closer’ he says from way across the room

huh?’

it’s getting closer! I swear! ….it’s gonna crawl out of that screen!!’


so I thought, ya know JUST IN CASE…. I better make a copy and show it to YOU!!

go on... click it!!

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

it's true google really DOES know ALL!!

I know it's been done a million times but not by ME!! hehehe

it seems to be making the rounds again and since I had nothing else to say today, I just had to do it!!

here’s the idea…. go to google, type in "[your name] needs" and see what the creepy creatures at google think you need (don't forget the quotation marks)

10 frighteningly accurate things GOOGLE says I need:

someone who can be firm and set rules ~ they got THAT right!!

your positive vibes ~ who doesn’t? please send all the positive vibes you can spare!!

a home ~ well I have a home but I wouldn’t mind a nicer one with at least one outlet in the kitchen and some storage somewhere!! hehehe

to continue therapy ~ yuck!! but probably true

parents who are financially able to provide for her ~ yeah are you sure I wasn’t switched at birth and my REAL parents aren’t nice, wealthy mutes?

to get down and party ~ get down and party???? what decade is this???

daily medication ~ haaaa!! I hope it's the yummy kind!!

a spanking ~ shhhh

to stay out of trouble ~ but then how will I get that spanking?

and finally.... I need to disappear into the woodwork again ~ haaaa well if that’s the way you feel!!

*poof*

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Monday, October 10, 2005

verrrry interesting.... but stupid



WARNING: portions of this post may not be suitable for people under 18 or anyone with a low tolerance for run on rambling….

The weekend started out with a nice surprise…. even though Sam had to leave for work at 4:30 Friday morning, he ended up getting home at around 11 o’clock!! So that was cool it was almost like he had a 3-day weekend.

Since he ate the lunch I packed him for breakfast instead and it was Friday and we go grocery shopping on Saturday there wasn’t much in the house to eat and he was starting to get pretty hungry…. we already established I’m always up for some grub sooooo we headed out to pick up some chinese food. While we were waiting we had to get hold of some cash (since neither of us ever carries any!!)

here’s a tip for the rest of you debit card users:

DON’T pay ATM fees!! There is ALWAYS something you could stand to pick up at the store, for example we can never have enough bottled water since the stuff that spews from our faucet is potentially toxic waste. Go to the store and grab one or two of your little essentials and get cash back at the register with your debit card!! You won’t believe how much money you’ll save in a year not paying ATM fees!!

Anyway…. since we had to run across the street to the supermarket we decided to rent a couple movies too, since we had a feeling we were gonna be rained in the next day (more on THAT in a minute)

I wanted to get the new Amityville, I’ve been dying to see Ryan Reynolds as George Lutz!! But of course they didn’t have it so I got the next best thing, another movie I’ve been wanting to see for a while, Sin City.

Sam had to slink behind a dingy curtain to select his movie hehehe It usually doesn’t take me long to figure out what I want to see so while I’m waiting for him to choose between Gaping Anal Cum Sluts 9 or 10 ~ I usually skulk around the store listening to people’s conversations. Which I often butt into since I’ve seen most of the movies there. If I hear people having a hard time choosing between two movies I usually chime in with my opinion. I’m just weird that way…. maybe my mommy never taught me not to talk to strangers because I do it ALL the time!!

Sometimes if the store is too dead to eavesdrop and they’re playing something good, I just plop down on the floor in front of the big wall of screens and watch, as if I belong there hehehe

But one of my favorite things about the video store is watching men inch their way toward the porno closet. They start out slowly browsing through the regular titles intently examining the back cover of An Officer and a Gentleman or something, looking around to make sure nobody is noticing as they work their way closer and closer to the back of the store. Finally they act as if they just drank a gallon of coffee and sprint down the hall, sidestepping behind the curtain. It’s pretty entertaining, picture me popping my head up from behind a shelf just as they think they’re in the clear, like something out of Laugh-In or the Benny Hill show haaaa

I’m not afraid of the porno closet, I’m not really interested in porn but I’ll often make several trips in there looking for Sam’s opinion on an interesting movie I found, and sometimes I’ll point out a particularly interesting looking title. Usually I’ll say Oh you just HAVE to get this one!! and point out something really off the wall gross looking hehehe then he flinches and tells me to go away!

I’ve noticed that people look at you funny when you exit that area though, like you’re somehow contaminated. Parents gather their children and guide them in another direction. It’s true!! hehehe

Finally we headed home with our movies and our yummy chinese food, neither of us could manage to make it home without wolfing down our egg rolls in the car haaaa

Anyway I have a hard time eating while watching porn but for some reason Sam seems to think it’s appropriate mealtime entertainment. Maybe he likes to watch me wretch…. So there we were shoveling sesame chicken, boneless spare ribs and fried rice into our mouths while some chick had a marathon of squirting orgasms. Seriously I wanted to hand her a bottle of water, she was starting to look like a wrung out dishrag toward the end and she just HAD to be getting dehydrated!!

Eventually I turned to Sam and said “why are you watching people fuck on tv when you can be doing it yourself?” there was no good reason so he turned off the tv and as he gnawed on his last bite of chewy pork he dragged me to the bedroom by my hair like a caveman (ok ok maybe it wasn’t like that)

He ordered me to put on something cuter than my stained, frumpy night shirt and sweats and blindfolded me. He whispered in my ear and made me do naughty, dirty things!! Part of this ‘scene’ required him to go outside, while he was out there it started to POUR!! If you saw the weather channel at all this weekend you might have some idea of how much it rained here in NY. Anyway when he came back in he was SOAKED but that didn’t stop him from fucking me senseless!!

Once we regained our composure we headed back to the living room to watch MORE tv!! and gobble up some more of that coagulating chinese food. For a brief moment I thought of
Brian and wondered how he was making out with the first of his 5 birthday fucks hehehe

And as usual I eventually fell asleep in my big comfy chair!!

But get a load of this…. instead of the usual bundling up under a blanket at this time of year we actually had to turn on the AC, it was so warm and muggy we never could have slept without it!! can you believe that!?!? AC in OCTOBER!!!

The next morning when I woke up I opened the front door to see if we had a huge lake at the doorstep like we often do when it rains a lot in a short amount of time, and I almost drowned in the insanely wet, warm air out there!! Then out of nowhere, seriously in the span of about 10 minutes it went from 71º to about 50º!!! It was the weirdest weather I remember having in a while – when all was said and done they say we got about 7 inches of rain on Saturday!! SEVEN inches!! holy crap imagine if that was SNOW?!?!?

It was probably some sort of government weather experiment!! That would explain why after the soaking wet Friday night sex, all of Sam’s hair fell out!! hehehe just kidding!!

Anyway a town about 40 minutes from here supposedly got ELEVEN inches!! that’s just insane!! But we needed it badly!! While those poor people down south have been up to their chimneys in water we’ve been shriveling like prunes up here. Pretty much everyone has been starting to get more than a little concerned about the water situation if the ground were to freeze before we get some serious rain. So nobody is complaining, nobody I know anyway hehehe

The rest of the weekend was pretty uneventful, we had Sam’s brother here for most of the day Saturday which meant I was on my own, I worked on some crafty stuff and watched tv. Then yesterday we went grocery shopping – and on our way back since the rain had finally stopped we went up the road a bit to pick some pumpkins. It was nice! I know he probably couldn’t care less about picking stupid pumpkins but he was pretty patient with me and my inability to make a decision. hehehe

We have this awesome store that at one time was just a farm stand but has expanded into this great big place with tons of local products and fresh made foods, which is where we do most of our grocery shopping. So when we got home I heated up some turkey and roasted garlic chowder I found there and made us some super yummy turkey and cheddar paninis with red onion on rye bread (it was soooooooo good!!) and we FINALLY watched Sin City, which I thought was really cute!! Not sure it’s supposed to be cute but I really liked the way it was done. Of course I know nothing about the graphic novels that it came from and I love that whole kinda surreal noir thing it had going on so I wasn’t hard to impress.

We weren’t done vegging in front of the tv just yet, so after Sin City we spent at least an hour fishing through the pathetic list of on demand choices and browsing our own movie collection before Sam finally settled on Forrest Gump. I thought that was a pretty odd choice for him but since neither one of us had seen that movie since it came out in the theater (even though we own a copy) I was game. I had forgotten what a damn tearjerker it was!! I was starting to get a headache from it hehehe

Then eventually, exhausted from all the big excitement of another riotous weekend in kittyville, I once again nodded off in my big comfy chair – surprise surprise!!

that concludes this weeks edition of the weekend update…. I hope yours was as nice :)


* at the risk of making people vomit, the ever perverted NSM suggests I add this little side note: while checking out the freshly rented porn Sam was having some skipping problems – he removed the disc from the machine and noticed a mysterious smudgy fingerprint which was interesting because before he put it on I said ‘don’t forget to check for mysterious smudgy fingerprints’ (because there is almost always at least one mucking up your porn viewing enjoyment!!) he then waved the dvd in my face and urged me to lick clean!!

it’s not as funny out of context but it’s just as disgusting…. there NSM happy now?! hehehe

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Friday, October 07, 2005

thinner....

so about a week ago I was feeling like crap and I made the mistake of telling Sam that I want to start eating better. Did I already mention this?

Anyway we already eat pretty well – I cook pretty much everything from scratch. I have a friend who cooks pretty much everything from packages. But she has kids – if I had kids I might be more likely to go that route too!

But anyway we eat pretty healthy food, fresh fruits and veggies, not a lot of red meat, not a lot of fat. You know the deal. It’s just that perhaps we eat a bit too much of it hehehe – we could both stand to lose a few (we’re both pretty much the heaviest we’ve ever been) we both seem really sensitive to the way certain foods make us feel – which is good I guess… I mean it might be nice to live in ignorant bliss, filling our bodies with delicious toxic junk, never realizing that we’re falling apart.

I see some people (the aforementioned friend for example) who seem to go through life that way and it kinda looks like fun. On the other hand I’m glad I get fewer colds and seem to have less health issues (knock on wood) than most people I know and I tend to think that it's because I eat healthier foods.

So when I say I want to eat better what I really mean is I want to eat less – no wait what I REALLY mean is I want to be healthier!! Get fewer headaches, have more energy etc. – I would LOVE it if that didn’t mean I had to eat less!! hehehe

I’m a bit of a grazer…. If you don’t know what that means – it means I nibble all day and at the end of the day I say to myself ‘self… what the hell did you eat today?’ and the answer is always ‘NOTHING’ yet somehow I seem full!! – THEN after dinner I pick at the leftovers until I get off my lazy ass and put them away.

So anyway I had another one of my brilliant ideas…. After reading Brian’s post about his wife’s diet, I got to thinking about the time I did the same diet and got VERY VERY sick!! BUT I lost like 30 pounds!! Woo hoo!! and I decided it would be cool to do that diet again only problem is it’s one of those things where you have to buy their food and it’s very expensive!!

So dumbass me decides hey I can make my own modified version of this diet – with my own meals and put them in the freezer. This way I have measured out portions and essentially can’t overeat. As soon as I told Sam this he thought it was a GREAT idea. Because he doesn’t like the idea of me eating prepackaged foods. They’re always full of preservatives and junk.

So no sooner than I foolishly let it spill that I had this brilliant idea than I wanted to turn back time and let it slide right back into my mouth! Because ever since then he’s been on my ass to gather the info I need to put this whole plan into action.

And sure in august this sounds just GREAT who wants to eat when they’re dripping with sweat and suffocating from the oppressive weather anyway?!

But in OCTOBER?!?!? With all this CANDY on sale everywhere!!! and a big HALLOWEEN party to go to!! and then THANKSGIVING!! and CHRISTMAS with all those cookies and fudge and all that stuff!! and our birthdays (December & January) and all that cake!!

Who the hell can think about going on a stupid diet?!?!?! hehehe

So here’s the plan once I get this whole thing together and meals in my freezer, I’ll be doing that 5 days a week – having my usual poached salmon one night a week and then taking one day a week off!! It won’t be so bad…. at least I’ll still get to eat yummy food – just less of it. We can do this!!


I’ll just have to find something else to keep my mouth occupied!! hehehe




did someone say PIE?!?!?

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Thursday, October 06, 2005

BOO!! ....did I scare ya?

so… it’s October!! The best month ever!! I decided this place needed a little (temporary) change… so I did a little Halloween decorating!! hehehe

I’m sure I’ve already rambled on enough about how much I LOVE October…. and what’s not to love? As if the cool crisp air and beautifully changing leaves aren’t enough?

There’s the added bonus of HALLOWEEN!! Which aside from the two yearly Twilight Zone marathons that sci fi runs on july 4th & new years, is the one thing I look most forward to all year!!

The entire month of October seems to be focused on Halloween…. jack-o-lanterns start popping up on people’s front porches and ghosts hang from trees. I spend more time decorating the front of my house for Halloween than I do the inside of my house for Christmas!! I don’t know why but I just LOVE Halloween and all that comes along with it!!

All the yummy gooey delicious chocolaty candy is on sale wherever you go AND it seems like no matter what time of the day or night, if you flip through the tv you’re sure to come across at least one scary movie!! Which happen to be one of my favorite things ever!!

Everything from House of Wax (the original) to Friday the 13th.... anything creepy or gorey it's EVERYWHERE in October. All the brain eating ghouls and axe wielding psychopaths... blood capsules exploding everywhere - it's enough to make me park my butt in front of the TV and not get up again till November!!

I don't know where this comes from but I think I've always loved this stuff!!!!! the first scary movie I think I ever saw was called Ghost Story, my mother's boyfriend at the time (the pedophile) took me and my sister to see this when I was 8 (which made her more like 6) -nice guy huh? I thought it was a great movie though. I think what ‘stuck out’ most in my mind was the full frontal nudity as a man stumbles out a window and flails in all his glory to his death on the pavement below.

When I was 9 a babysitter took us to see The Thing at the drive-in (I know you're thinking I might as well have been raised by wolves right?) hehehe so now not only am I hooked on horror but I'm also in love with the drive-in, which I think I’ve also mentioned before. When I was younger I often wished I was switched at birth or something and that my real daddy was Joe Bob Briggs hehehe

Even though I have a pretty good size collection of cult/horror movies it’s still a treat when one comes on tv… kinda like when one of your favorite songs comes on the radio even though you have the cd, somehow it just seems better on the radio – ya know? Just the fact that you weren’t expecting it I guess.

Anyway so that explains the new look and little about what makes me tick.
I think I’ll go make some popcorn and sort through my shelves for some old friends to keep me company…. I think today’s scream fest will start with Motel Hell – remember kiddies…. it takes all kinds of critters to make farmer vincent’s fritters!!

have a creepy day!!

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

a whole lot of nothing....

Well I’ve been kinda quiet lately, or at least not saying much. I guess I’ve been keeping myself busy with other things. I have a way of turning my cute little projects into chores, which is one of the reasons I’ve never been able to keep a journal. This is the longest I’ve ever kept up with anything where I somewhat regularly wrote down my thoughts (I don’t know if you can actually call this a journal)

This is partly due to the fact that it’s never messy, if my handwriting sucks today it doesn’t matter – times new roman is times new roman, comic sans is comic sans etc. I have an issue with neat penmanship and my handwriting changes almost as often as I change my underwear. I think if you didn’t know me you could look at 5 examples of my handwriting and think they were from 5 different people.

I was watching a rerun of CSI last night and they were comparing signatures and I thought ‘you could never do that with me’ it would depend on my mood whether I was slanting to the left or the right or straight up & down, whether my letters are big and loopy or small and tight (or small & loopy or big & tight) hehehe - whether it’s print or script.

Until I got married my last name started with a G (aside from a brief period in high school where someone thought it would be a good idea for us to take my mother’s last name) that never stuck with me because it rhymed with my first name so I didn’t like it!!

Anyway I literally spent most of my life trying to perfect my upper case G because no matter what I did I wasn’t happy with the way it looked!! To this day I’ll look back at something I signed when I was a kid and say ‘what the heck kinda G is that?!?!’

I never much liked my last name (or my first name for that matter) and when I got married I was so psyched to be getting a new last name!! my ‘new’ name starts with E. I’ve been married for over 9 years now and I swear I’ve spent the whole 9 years trying to perfect my upper case E because IT never looks quite right!!

I clearly have a mental problem when it comes to writing!! I can’t even make a grocery list without redoing it at least once because it wasn’t neat enough hehehe – Sam is always giving me a hard time about all the trees I’m killing :(

He’s the keeper of the paper, not for any particular reason I don’t think. Is it possible that he has all the paper so that I won’t waste as much of it?? I never really thought about it. I DO know that he’s a bit of a paper hoarder!! He can’t walk past a notebook or loose-leaf sale without stocking up!!

If I want to write something on a full piece of paper (as opposed to my little 8 inch note pad) I go to him and ask for paper and he will only give me a couple sheets at a time. I whine and say ‘is that all I get??’ he says when I’m done with it if I need more I can have it.

And it works, I do try to be more careful! I try to find something else to cushion the pen (proper cushioning is essential ya know) I can’t stand the way a pen feels rolling across a hard table over just one piece of paper, I need a few sheets for proper cushioning. This means that I’ll have made an impression on the ‘cushion sheets’ making them useless for proper writing and only good as scrap or first draft paper.

The last time I decided to keep a journal I spent more time making it cute than I did actually writing in it. I cut out little pictures to attach to the cover and did all these cutesy, scrapbook type things to it. Adorning it with personality became a project in itself, which left the actual writing totally unsatisfying. I think I wrote in it like 5 times, and it still sits on my shelf as a reminder of why I don’t keep a journal!!

Because to ramble on about NOTHING like this is a huge waste of paper…. but there’s nothing but room here in blogville to spew on & on & on!! Not exactly sure WHY I’d want to but here I am anyway… and I'm sure I'll be back to spew another day!!

when I sat down I fully intended to write about something else entirely…. so what the hell was this?!?!?

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Saturday, October 01, 2005

pop quiz....

ok class settle down... this quiz is for extra credit! which if you're anything like me, means absolutely nothing since you have no credit to begin with!

ya know I can't resist a cute little quizzy poo... they make such nice little cluttery space fillers when you otherwise have nothing to say. I actually have some things to say but don't have the time to actually say them and since it's the weekend and nobody is around anyway why should I waste my time? so instead I'll just leave you with this, which is pretty much right on!! weird!! hehehe

which of the 5 senses am I most connected to?

random
Sight. You are most connected to your sense of
sight. You are scared of the unknown... You
would much rather know every detail of a story
than just the summary. Most likely you are very
smart or wise (whichever you prefer). The sense
of sight has to be one of the most important
ones. It would be hell to have to live without
it... You try to distance yourself from people,
but don't really succeed at at. People just
can't stay away from your mysterious
personality. You and I would probably get along
nicely. You really should take some of my other
quizzes. I can tell you would like them. Feel
free to rate/message. Thanx!

~Which of the 5 senses are you most connected to?~ (with... you guessed it! Anime pics.)
brought to you by Quizilla

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