double shots

well today is totally explainable since I know I heard both of these songs at least once yesterday - once again I woke up super early like around 3:30 with Jane's Addiction's 'Jane Says' in my head... this in my opinion is one of the saddest and most awesomely beautiful songs I've ever heard - later when I woke up for good my head was filled with 'fell in love with a boy' which is Joss Stone's cover of the White Stripe's 'fell in love with a girl' both songs are fucking awesome but I just happened to wake up with the Joss Stone version which is much more mellow and soulful

Jane Says ~ Jane's Addiction

Jane says I'm done with Sergio

He treats me like a ragdoll

She hides the television

says 'I don't owe him nothing

but if he comes back again

tell him to wait right here for me or try again tomorrow'

'I'm gonna kick tomorrow...'

'I'm gonna kick tomorrow...'

'Jane says 'Have you seen my wig around?

I feel naked without it'

She knows They all want her to go

but that's ok man

She don't like them anyway

Jane says 'I'm going away to spain when I get my money saved

I'm gonna start tomorrow'

'I'm gonna kick tomorrow...'

'I'm gonna kick tomorrow...'

She gets mad and she starts to cry

takes a swing but she can't hit!

She don't mean no harm

She just don't know...

what else to do about it

Jane goes to the store at eight

She walks up on St. Andrews

She waits and gets her dinner there

She pulls her dinner from her pocket

Jane says 'I've never been in love - no'

She don't know what it is

She only knows if someone wants her

'I only want 'em if they want me...'

'I only know they want me...'

Jane says...

Jane says...

Fell in love with a boy ~ Joss Stone

Fell in love with a boy

I fell in love once and almost completely

He's in love with the world

And sometimes these feelings can be so misleading

He turns and says, "Are you alright?"

Oh, I must be fine cause my heart's still beating

Come and kiss me by the riverside,

Sarah says it's cool, she don't consider it cheating

Oooh ooh ooh

Red hair with a curl

Mellow roll for the flavor and the eyes were peepin

Can't keep away from the boy

The two sides of my brain need to have a meeting

Can't think of anything to do

My left brain knows all of love is fleeting

He's just lookin for somethin new

I said it once before but it bears repeating

Oooh oooh ooh

Can't think of anything to do

My left brain knows all of love is fleeting

He's just lookin for somethin new

I said it once before but it bears repeating

Oooh oooh ooh

Fell in love with a boy

I fell in love once and almost completely

He's in love with the world and sometimes these feelings can be so misleading

He turns and says, "Are you alright?"

Oh, I must be fine cause my heart's still beating

Come and kiss me by the riverside

Sarah says it's cool, she don't consider it cheating, oh

Don't go telling all my

Don't go telling all my

Don't go telling all my lies on Sarah

Don't go telling all my

Don't go telling all my

Don't go telling all my lies on Sarah

Ooooh oooh oooh

Can't think of anything to do

My left brain knows all of love is fleeting

He's just looking for something new

I said it once before but it bears repeating

Oooh oooh oooh

Gonna tell you what's on my mind

I'm gonna tell you what's on my mind

Cause it bears repeating

ummm - who the hell are England Dan & John Ford Coley???

I think it's true what they say about your brain storing every tiny little thing that you ever hear or see, because I can't imagine how I ever heard this song.... the only thing I can think of is that a couple days ago I went to home depot with my mother and she listens to what I guess would be described as an easy listening station - MAYBE this song came on while we were in the car?!?!?! anyway I woke up around 2:30 am thinking.... I'd really love to see you toni---reallllly love to see ya toniiiiight - so I jotted that down on the nearest piece of paper (a paper towel) with the note 'easy listening?' next to it.... and drifted back to sleep - when I woke up a couple hours later that song was nowhere to be 'heard' and I was glad I wrote it down cause I never woulda pulled this one outta my butt again in a million years hehehe - this time when I woke up something happened that happens once in a rare while... instead of a song I'll have a word, name or phase repeating over and over again in my head when this happened today what kept repeating was 'Charlotte Bronte - Charlotte Bronte - Charlotte Bronte - Charlotte Bronte' - ok well what I know about Charlotte Bronte you could fit in the eye of a needle - without looking her up I'm pretty sure she was a writer from the 1800's.... when we were living with my grandfather about 5 years ago I found a really OLD copy of Jane Eyre in his attic - and I mean old... like pages are disintegrating.... but I've never read it - the dust would kill me!! maybe I should read it though ~shrug - anyway then later on when I woke up for good I knew there was a song back in my head and it took a minute to pry it out but when I did at least I recognized it - I didn't know what it was called or who it was by until I looked it up but at least I know I've heard it - probably on Tuesday in the car because I remember the topic of this band came up - it was One Headlight - by the Wallflowers - as far as England Dan & John Ford Coley... I have no idea who they are and as far as I know I have never heard of them - but when I searched for that lyric I found a page with an MP3 and sure enough that was the song in my head!! soooooo the mystery just keeps getting more.... mysterious and I am as clueless as ever - but maybe I'll see about reading Jane Eyre while I try to figure it out hehehe

I'd really love to see you tonight ~ England Dan and John Ford Coley

Hello, yeah, it's been a while

Not much, how 'bout you

I'm not sure why I called

I guess I really just wanted to talk to you

And I was thinking maybe later on

We could get together for a while

It's been such a long time

And I really do miss your smile

I'm not talking 'bout moving in

And I don't want to change your life

But there's a warm wind blowing

The stars are out

And I'd really love to see you tonight

We could go walking through a windy park

Or take a drive along the beach

Or stay at home and watch t.v.

You see, it really doesn't matter much to me

I'm not talking 'bout moving in

And I don't want to change your life

But there's a warm wind blowing

The stars are out

And I'd really love to see you tonight

I won't ask for promises

So you won't have to lie

We've both played that game before

Say I love you, then say goodbye

I'm not talking 'bout moving in

And I don't want to change your life

But there's a warm wind blowing

The stars are out

And I'd really love to see you tonight

---

One Headlight ~ Wallflowers

So long ago, I don't remember when

That's when they say I lost my only friend

Well, they said she died easy of a broken heart disease

As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn

The long broken arm of human law

Now, it always seemed such a waste

She always had a pretty faceI wondered why she hung around this place

(chorus)

Hey, come on try a little

Nothing is forever

There's got to be something better than

In the middleBut me and Cinderella

We put it all together

We can drive it home

With one headlight

She said it's cold

It feels like Independence Day

And I can't break away from this parade

But there's got to be an opening

Somewhere here in front of me

Through this maze of ugliness and greed

And I seen the sun up ahead

At the county line bridge

Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead

We'll run until she's out of breath

She ran until there's nothin' left

She hit the end, it's just her window ledge

(chorus)

Well, this place is old

It feels just like a beat up truck

I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn

Well, it smells of cheap wine and cigarettes

This place is always such a mess

Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn

I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else

Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same

But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams

I think of death, it must be killin' me...

(chorus)

Campbell's Salt 'N Pepa Soup

once in a while I wake up with two songs battling it out in my head.... today was one of those days.... I woke up as usual around 4 with Salt N Pepa's 'Whatta Man' - of course I can't imagine how or when I could have heard this song EVER let alone recently - when I woke up again around 7 that song was still there but it was going back and forth with the most recent Campbell's tomato soup jingle - where they tell you to add sour cream and stuff to turn your soup into a taco... and other assorted 'possibilities' - I don't really know the words to that so mostly it's just the tune with some words that I do know thrown in - the others being replaced by mumbles hehehe so I'll just post the chorus to the Salt 'N Pepa song since that was the only part I seem to remember (probably the only part I know)

Whatta Man ~ Salt 'N Pepa

What a man, what a man, what a man

What a mighty good man

What a man, what a man, what a man

What a mighty good man

What a man, what a man, what a man

What a mighty good man

What a man, what a man, what a man

What a mighty good man

Open Your Eyes II

I slept all night in my nice, warm, cozy bed last night!!!!! it was very nice.... especially waking up next to my honey... I could just roll over and lay my head on his chest and ease into being awake... I woke up 3 times this morning - once at about 4 I had to peeeeeee so bad!! hehehe and I had that same Alter Bridge song in my head that I had the other day - and this doesn't usually happen but I woke up at like 5:30 and it was still there... and again at around 7 - so I'm not gonna post the lyrics again - but maybe there is something to that song....

What's New Pussycat?!?!?!?!

well last night I played a long game of musical beds!! - I was trying to prove to myself that I CAN sleep laying down - after being in the chair for 5 nights I was starting to feel like I may never get to sleep in my bed next to my husband ever again - I don't want to end up like one of those couples that just for no apparent reason don't sleep together - these things start out over a cold and end up being a habit hehehe - now that I've discovered how much better my spine feels after sleeping in that chair I could easily see myself getting into that habit - I started out on the couch, moved down to the floor and then to the bed for a couple hours.... then out to the chair for a few more hours then back to the bed for a little while and then back to the chair again! it was a long night!! at around for I woke up for a moment and was happy to hear Velvet Revolver's Fall to Pieces in my head.... and I fell back to sleep wondering if it would still be there later - when I finally woke up around 7 I couldn't believe what I was 'hearing' - WHAT'S NEW PUSSYCAT?!?!?!?! what the hell?? it was in the background of my dreamm... I practically had to pry it out before I was fully awake - I thought that Missy Elliott song was strange enough but this is beyond strange!! anyway I probably have more to say but even though my cold seems to really be getting better I'm still really tired and I just want to get some rest so I'll shut up....

maybe tomorrow I can try to figure out what these songs might be saying to me:

Fall To Pieces ~ Velvet Revolver

It's been a long year

Since you've been gone

I've been alone here

I've grown old

I fall to pieces,

I'm falling

Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

Every time I'm falling down

All alone I fall to pieces

I keep a journal of memories

I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe

I fall to pieces, I'm falling

Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

All the years I've triedWith more to go

Will the memories dieI'm waiting

Will I find youCan I find you

We're falling down

I'm falling

---

What's New Pussycat ~ Tom Jones

What's new pussycat? Woah, Woah

What's new pussycat? Woah, Woah

Pussycat, Pussycat

I've got flowers

And lots of hours

To spend with you

So go and powder your cute little pussycat nose

Pussycat, Pussycat

I love you

Yes, I do

You and your pussycat nose

What's new pussycat? Woah, Woah

What's new pussycat? Woah, Woah

Pussycat, Pussycat

You're so thrilling

And I'm so willing

To care for you.

So go and make up your cute little pussycat face

Pussycat, Pussycat I love you

Yes, I do

You and your pussycat face

What's new pussycat? Woah, Woah

What's new pussycat? Woah, Woah

Pussycat, Pussycat

You're delicious

And if my wishes

Can all come true

I'll soon be kissing your sweet little pussycat lips

Pussycat, Pussycat

I love you

Yes, I do

You and your pussycat lips

You and your pussycat eyes

You and your pussycat nose

Open Your Eyes

well alright at least I know I heard this song yesterday.... but the question still remains - Why this one and not one of the probably hundreds of other songs I heard yesterday?!?! I had the radio on all day trying to win a contest for Sam - I need that thing that makes your phone keep dialing until it gets a ring!! it was a cool contest though, for a pass into this tiny little concert venue for you and a friend to any and every single show for the rest of the whole year!! that would have been awesome for him... but my phone is too slow hehehe
Anyway... slept in the chair again last night - I don't know what it is I thought it was from the congestion but I was feeling much less congested last night.... it just kept feeling like my heart was racing - even when I went out into the living room - it was much better out there though... at least I was able to sleep even if all I got was like 5 hours - I think I really better try to take it easy today.... maybe I'll even get a nap in - it's a snowy day so we'll probably just stay in and watch movies or something... it'll be nice to spend some time with him, it really seems like I've hardly seen him at all for the last few weeks - and He just got up so off I go

Open Your Eyes ~ Alter Bridge

Looking back I clearly see

What it is that's killing me

Through the eyes of one I know

I see a vision once let go

I had it all

Constantly it burdens me

Hard to trust and can't believe

Lost the faith and lost the love

When the day is done

Will they open their eyes

And realize we are one

On and on we stand alone

Until our day has come

When they open their eyes

And realize we are one

I love the way I feel today

But how I know the sun will fade

Darker days seem to be

What will always live in me

But still I run

It's hard to walk this path alone

Hard to know which way to go

Will I ever save this day

Will it ever change

Will they open their eyes

And realize we are one

Still today we carry on

I know our day will come

When they open their eyes

And realize we are one

Will they open their eyes

And realize we are one

(its hard to walk this path alone
hard to know which way to go)

Will they open their eyes and realize we are one

(lost the faith and lost the love when the day is done)

Will they open their eyes

And realize we are one

Get Ur Freak On

ahh well night 4 in the comfy ol' chair - woo hoo!! though I think I'm on the mend.... I've discovered a miracle cure for clogged sinuses - those facial masks I used to use cold for my migraines work GREAT hot for helping to drain sinuses... I knew that! I guess I'd just forgotten. anyway I tried to sleep in my bed last night but I just couldn't stay asleep so back out to the chair.... I slept pretty much straight through the night woke up around 6 and what was in my head? the chorus to Missy Elliott's 'Get Ur Freak On' which is basically just some irritating repetitive music mixed with those 4 words - over and over and over again - I couldn't possibly have had the rest of the song in my head since I'm sure I've never actually heard more than the chorus, and that was probably on some commercial for one of those 'only available through this special television offer' dance mix collections... I'm pretty sure I haven't even heard that in a while - Sam says it's a message from god!! haaaaa - I don't think I'll ever figure THIS mystery out!!

well I hope to be able to get some cleaning done around here today - I've been so lazy all week with this cold I'm afraid it won't be long before my house is condemned!! my bathroom looks like something out of trainspotting- and no matter how hard I try to toss my tissues into the little basket I brought out from the bedroom and put right near my chair I still seem to miss more often than not... the whole place is falling down around me - tomorrow is Sam's day off and apparently we're supposed to get 7-10 inches of snow or something like that... if we're both gonna be stuck here I can not go into it with this much mess!!!

Scenes From An Italian Restaurant

ok so I'm finally doing this.... I've been sick with a cold for a few days now and as a result have been sleeping in my super comfy recliner in the living room because every time I nod off horizontally I wake up gasping for air - as far as I can remember I haven't had a single dream or woken up with any tunes humming away in my head - until this morning at some point I had a brief dream that I was looking out my kitchen window, at night - the motion light was on and there were 5 or so baby bobcats hanging around my bird feeders - off to the right was their mother I think... they were soooooo cute!! at some point shmoo (my cat) got out and we had to try to get her back in which I assume we did - it was a very short and silly dream which like most of my dreams seems to make no sense at all hehehe - eventually when I woke up this was playing in my head - I have no idea why!! I can't really remember the last time I heard this song.

Scenes From An Italian Restaurant ~ Billy Joel

a bottle of white, a bottle of red
Perhaps a bottle of rose instead
We’ll get a table near the street
In our old familiar place
You and I - face to face

A bottle of red, a bottle of white
It all depends on your appetite
I’ll meet you any time you want
In our italian restaurant.

Things are okay with me these days
Got a good job, got a good office
Got a new wife, got a new life
And the family’s fine
We lost touch long ago
You lost weight I did not know
You could ever look so good after so much time.

I remember those days hanging out at the village green
Engineer boots, leather jackets and tight blue jeans
Drop a dime in the box play the song about new orleans
Cold beer, hot lights
My sweet romantic teenage nights

Brenda and Eddie were the popular steadies
And the king and the queen of the prom
Riding around with the car top down and the radio on
Nobody looked any finer
Or was more of a hit at the Parkway Diner
We never knew we could want more than that out of life
Surely Brenda and Eddie would always know how to survive.

Brenda and Eddie were still going steady in the summer of ’75
When they decided the marriage would be at the end of July
Everyone said they were crazy
Brenda you know you’re much too lazy
Eddie could never afford to live that kind of life.
But there we were wavin’ Brenda and Eddie goodbye.

They got an apartment with deep pile carpet
And a couple of paintings from sears
A big waterbed that they bought with the bread
They had saved for a couple of years
They started to fight when the money got tight
And they just didn’t count on the tears.

They lived for a while in a very nice style
But it’s always the same in the end
They got a divorce as a matter of course
And they parted the closest of friends
Then the king and the queen went back to the green
But you can never go back there again.

Brenda and Eddie had had it already by the summer of ’75
From the high to the low to the end of the show
For the rest of their lives
They couldn’t go back to the greasers
The best they could do was pick up the pieces
We always knew they would both find a way to get by
That’s all I heard about Brenda and Eddie
Can’t tell you more 'cause I told you already
And here we are wavin’ Brenda and Eddie goodbye.

a bottle of red, a bottle of white
Whatever kind of mood you’re in tonight
I’ll meet you anytime you want
In our italian restaurant.